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Not such a good day. Got called a gimp again. god...
I talked to Aladren about some stuff i need to work on.
I went home and i talked to my parents, about it...got into another fight with them.
So now i can't take music lessons anymore because i don't want to sell my music, i want to play it. However, i don't want to go to Collage for Music, because there isn't a degree for what i want.
Then my dad said i don't take anything serious. He says that i dont have apeice of music written down..WHICH IS A LIE BECAUSE I HAve all my lyrics AND CHORDS DOWN SAVED TO MY COMPUTER AND SEVERAL OTHER PLACES! i HAND WRITE ALL MY MUSIC, NOTES AND MELODY...
He said he's stopping my music lessons...and that my jazz song i wrote is terrible.
Not feeling so good right now...
Hayley michelle
Thursday, October 27, 2011
Wednesday, October 26, 2011
I'm ugly when i cry
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Not such a good day today. I am uch a bad mover, i hate it. I want to get better, and i try but its never good enough.
I thought about posting this on the pretty project, but something told me it was alittle to off topic for that blog.
I feel like I disapiont Aldren. I don't know. Ms.Mack had us run fast in circles singing "Mary had a little lamb".
I couldn't do it.
I couldnot keep up with everyone, and i was panting.
And i jsut remeber looknig at Ms.Aladren, sand she looked so disapionted.
Perhaps it's all in my head...but maybe not.
I haven't been myself lately. I'm tired...I used to be such a try hard, but i'm getting B's...i cant sing anymore...i'm jsut mopey and sad. I don't know what's gonig on and i don't know what i'm doing anymore.
I don't know anything.
Aladren also had as do a mask exersize..where we sit face close to the mirror and stare at our own reflecion's eyes for 5 minutes streight.
I looked at myself..all sweaty with my roles of fat hanging out..and i just started crying. I could stop crying until i got back to Aladren's room.
I jsut looked at myself, and i didn't like what i saw.
I think that's the lowest piont anyone can go to...when they can't even like themselves anymore.
And to make matter's worse i got paired up with Kelsey for aprt 2 of the excersize.
Kelsey..is so talented and pretty. And from what i know..she is so confident and happy with herself. We had to see the other person as the new face in the mirror and let it effect us...but yet at the same time, its about the other person...
And that made me cry even harder. Becaseu here is this idea person that i would love to be...
and pretending that that would be what i could see in the mirrror jsut broke me down...becasue i know i can't be that.
And i made her cry. I told her that she was very beautiful. She just stareted crying too. Now great, i'm making everyone cry. God i'm terrible.
In math today, someone said i probably looked ugly when i cry. I'm not sure why we were talknig about it..but we were. And that made me sad.
I didn't cry..because i'm used to things like that..but it hurt alot.
And in Spanish i was talknig to Aleshia about how halloween is the best because tyou get to be a kid again.
I said "Halloween is the best! You get to go out in a scary costumes and get free candy!" and a girl...i can't say her name because i'm not stoping to her level said
"Or you could jsut go outside look ing like that and get fre candy".
I think that hurt the most today...
This girl hates me. I don't even know why! She always talks about me and laughs behind my back in math class...I don't get it.
Why does everyone hate me?
I think it's because i'm loud. I'm trying to change, i really am...but like i said. Nothing i do is ever good enough.
I like Halloween because its the one day i year i get to put on make-up and be someone else .
Hayley Michelle
Not such a good day today. I am uch a bad mover, i hate it. I want to get better, and i try but its never good enough.
I thought about posting this on the pretty project, but something told me it was alittle to off topic for that blog.
I feel like I disapiont Aldren. I don't know. Ms.Mack had us run fast in circles singing "Mary had a little lamb".
I couldn't do it.
I couldnot keep up with everyone, and i was panting.
And i jsut remeber looknig at Ms.Aladren, sand she looked so disapionted.
Perhaps it's all in my head...but maybe not.
I haven't been myself lately. I'm tired...I used to be such a try hard, but i'm getting B's...i cant sing anymore...i'm jsut mopey and sad. I don't know what's gonig on and i don't know what i'm doing anymore.
I don't know anything.
Aladren also had as do a mask exersize..where we sit face close to the mirror and stare at our own reflecion's eyes for 5 minutes streight.
I looked at myself..all sweaty with my roles of fat hanging out..and i just started crying. I could stop crying until i got back to Aladren's room.
I jsut looked at myself, and i didn't like what i saw.
I think that's the lowest piont anyone can go to...when they can't even like themselves anymore.
And to make matter's worse i got paired up with Kelsey for aprt 2 of the excersize.
Kelsey..is so talented and pretty. And from what i know..she is so confident and happy with herself. We had to see the other person as the new face in the mirror and let it effect us...but yet at the same time, its about the other person...
And that made me cry even harder. Becaseu here is this idea person that i would love to be...
and pretending that that would be what i could see in the mirrror jsut broke me down...becasue i know i can't be that.
And i made her cry. I told her that she was very beautiful. She just stareted crying too. Now great, i'm making everyone cry. God i'm terrible.
In math today, someone said i probably looked ugly when i cry. I'm not sure why we were talknig about it..but we were. And that made me sad.
I didn't cry..because i'm used to things like that..but it hurt alot.
And in Spanish i was talknig to Aleshia about how halloween is the best because tyou get to be a kid again.
I said "Halloween is the best! You get to go out in a scary costumes and get free candy!" and a girl...i can't say her name because i'm not stoping to her level said
"Or you could jsut go outside look ing like that and get fre candy".
I think that hurt the most today...
This girl hates me. I don't even know why! She always talks about me and laughs behind my back in math class...I don't get it.
Why does everyone hate me?
I think it's because i'm loud. I'm trying to change, i really am...but like i said. Nothing i do is ever good enough.
I like Halloween because its the one day i year i get to put on make-up and be someone else .
Hayley Michelle
Tuesday, October 25, 2011
Monday, October 24, 2011
NJPLAYWRITE
So i am working on my falure of a thesis paper..DUE TOMARROW!
I didn't wait for the last mniute...my mind did. I have extreme writers block. CRAPOLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anywho...re-rezdin the play for ideas.
Goin to enter the NJ playwriting thingy . <3
so lets pray for the best! yay!
Hayley Michelle
I didn't wait for the last mniute...my mind did. I have extreme writers block. CRAPOLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Anywho...re-rezdin the play for ideas.
Goin to enter the NJ playwriting thingy . <3
so lets pray for the best! yay!
Hayley Michelle
Thursday, October 20, 2011
NO INTERVIEWSSSSSSSSSSSSS
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NO INTERVIEWSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111 Im running dry. I need people to interview BADLY for the pretty project!!! arg! Trying to get some now...in the meantime.
There is this song, again from Regina Spector (EVIL GENIUS! HER SONGS GET STUCK IN MY MIND!!!)
She has a song called "Oedipus". And its ADDICTIVE!!! About one of our plays we had to read inshop. <33
Listen to it! Imma link it below. <3333
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSfSR4Pj1EE
Hayley Michelle
NO INTERVIEWSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!111 Im running dry. I need people to interview BADLY for the pretty project!!! arg! Trying to get some now...in the meantime.
There is this song, again from Regina Spector (EVIL GENIUS! HER SONGS GET STUCK IN MY MIND!!!)
She has a song called "Oedipus". And its ADDICTIVE!!! About one of our plays we had to read inshop. <33
Listen to it! Imma link it below. <3333
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MSfSR4Pj1EE
Hayley Michelle
Wednesday, October 19, 2011
STILL SICK!
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still sick. but no matter what i am going to school tomarrow! IF IT KILLZ ME!!!!
i miss theater. ive been writing alot lately. havent posted in the pretty project because i havnt interviewed anyone yet =(
oh wellz, tomarrow i will start again!!!
hayley michelle
still sick. but no matter what i am going to school tomarrow! IF IT KILLZ ME!!!!
i miss theater. ive been writing alot lately. havent posted in the pretty project because i havnt interviewed anyone yet =(
oh wellz, tomarrow i will start again!!!
hayley michelle
Tuesday, October 18, 2011
Old love
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still sick. AGGG.
My grandparents are paying me to write them a new "wedding song". They'r wegetting re-married for their 50th aniversay and i guess im their wedding siner. XP
working on their song now. So far its super cheesy n i hate it. feed back? her are the lyrics. COPYWRITED!
still sick. AGGG.
My grandparents are paying me to write them a new "wedding song". They'r wegetting re-married for their 50th aniversay and i guess im their wedding siner. XP
working on their song now. So far its super cheesy n i hate it. feed back? her are the lyrics. COPYWRITED!
V: Maybe someday I’ll get married/ have two kids and grow up happy/ live high up on hill/ in a castle on a cloud/ maybe I’ll meet my prince on a train/ and he’ll kiss me in the pouring rain/ throwing pebbles at my window singing/ “I love you out loud”./ maybe someday/ might be today/
C: So/ star light/ and star bright/ wish I may and wish I might/ find the love of my life tonight/ twinkly twinkle little star/ may he love me with all his heart/ and blue diamond in the sky/ let wish that I’ll kiss him tonight/
V: Maybe I’ll walk down the isle/ turn my head/ and mom will smile/ Dad will walk his little girl/ down and give her away/ maybe flowers in my hair/ everybody will stop and stare/ and the groom will say I put the flowers to shame/ and maybe someday/ might be today/
C: So/ star light/ and star bright/ wish I may and wish I might/ find the love of my life tonight/ twinkly twinkle little star/ may he love me with all his heart/ and blue diamond in the sky/ let wish that I’ll kiss him tonight/
B: Maybe someday/ is every day/ and everyday he’ll love me more and more/ and when time stops/ one life time together isn’t enough/ and maybe someday / is today/ maybe he’s with me now/ somehow/ Starlight and starbright/ wish i may and wish i might/ Wish that this night will never end
C: So/ star light/ and star bright/ wish I may and wish I might/ find the love of my life tonight/ twinkly twinkle little star/ may he love me with all his heart/ and blue diamond in the sky/ let wish that I’ll kiss him tonight/Monday, October 17, 2011
So i might possibly have gotten Mono
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Yup. Ya heard me....Mono.
Idk, my doctor said it was a POSSIBILITY!!!!!! But i'm a drama queen..soi i'm gonna go with I have mono.
Either that or an extreame case of strep...however the test did come out as negitive....XD
I;ve been sick for 5 days already, strted on Friday..i was well enough to see Aldren's show, buyt on the ride home it was MURDER!
So stuck at home watching Castle re-runs until i can talk..My throat is inflamed.
I think i missed a guest artist today. I was very depressed.
I did MUCHO TONS OF WRITING!!!
I guess thats a plus to being home....my cat is fat.
Sorry, again, Thisis a s SOC,....ya.
He really is round thoguh. Sorry, he is squashing my foot at the moment. I 'm looknig at him now.....
Maybe i should stop typing.
Going to send in my writings now to Aladren. yay!
Hayley Michelle
Yup. Ya heard me....Mono.
Idk, my doctor said it was a POSSIBILITY!!!!!! But i'm a drama queen..soi i'm gonna go with I have mono.
Either that or an extreame case of strep...however the test did come out as negitive....XD
I;ve been sick for 5 days already, strted on Friday..i was well enough to see Aldren's show, buyt on the ride home it was MURDER!
So stuck at home watching Castle re-runs until i can talk..My throat is inflamed.
I think i missed a guest artist today. I was very depressed.
I did MUCHO TONS OF WRITING!!!
I guess thats a plus to being home....my cat is fat.
Sorry, again, Thisis a s SOC,....ya.
He really is round thoguh. Sorry, he is squashing my foot at the moment. I 'm looknig at him now.....
Maybe i should stop typing.
Going to send in my writings now to Aladren. yay!
Hayley Michelle
Thursday, October 13, 2011
HOLA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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I was going to post in the pretty project, but i didn't interview anyone this weekk.SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hi.
Today isat out in cross0training, because i can;t do anything until the 18th. (stupid doctors XP).
Iwas jsut out of it today...idk.
I think its because I have a song obbession.
REGINA SPECTOR: GUINUS NEXT DOOR
HOLY SHIZA ITS AMAZING!!!
I cant stop singing it, or playing it....ITS DRIVING ME INSAINE!!!
So i'm writing a play about it...
not my obession, the song.
Something i Love about Regina's music is that she hates talking about what her lyrics mean. She leaves it up to her fans! There are literally THOUSANDS of websites dedicated to de-coding her lyrics. It's interesitng to hear others views on songs.
LISTEN TO THE SONG AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!
<3333
ya...so...back to listening to the song!
Bye!
Hayley Michelle
I was going to post in the pretty project, but i didn't interview anyone this weekk.SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO hi.
Today isat out in cross0training, because i can;t do anything until the 18th. (stupid doctors XP).
Iwas jsut out of it today...idk.
I think its because I have a song obbession.
REGINA SPECTOR: GUINUS NEXT DOOR
HOLY SHIZA ITS AMAZING!!!
I cant stop singing it, or playing it....ITS DRIVING ME INSAINE!!!
So i'm writing a play about it...
not my obession, the song.
Something i Love about Regina's music is that she hates talking about what her lyrics mean. She leaves it up to her fans! There are literally THOUSANDS of websites dedicated to de-coding her lyrics. It's interesitng to hear others views on songs.
LISTEN TO THE SONG AND TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!
<3333
ya...so...back to listening to the song!
Bye!
Hayley Michelle
Thursday, October 6, 2011
SVU; SHOWBIZ VICTIMS UNIT
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i was going to post in the pretty project, but i didn't feel like spelling correctly. I am SOOOOOO butt headed!!! I can't get past page 4 of my thesis paper!!!!! Aggggggggggggggersjhbgfhldiojpkiu&t^rfgui)$erfhjuiop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, done raginggg.Throwing an AWSOME halloween party.
Working on play for school. <3
Ok, thats about it.
Love your FACESSSSSSs
Hayley Michelle
i was going to post in the pretty project, but i didn't feel like spelling correctly. I am SOOOOOO butt headed!!! I can't get past page 4 of my thesis paper!!!!! Aggggggggggggggersjhbgfhldiojpkiu&t^rfgui)$erfhjuiop!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Ok, done raginggg.Throwing an AWSOME halloween party.
Working on play for school. <3
Ok, thats about it.
Love your FACESSSSSSs
Hayley Michelle
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