MONDAY BLOG

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Ok. Didn't blog on monday. had piano voice.
Dad isharping on me to choose between music and playwrighting again.
Aladren mentioned trying to work with other musicians in class. I would like to work sebastian. Imma ask him if he can help me hook up a MIDI chord to my piano. =)
Anywho, i have alot to do.
Working on play for thursday, memorising monolugue. Thinking about being a beatrice not a hero....i think. I don't know. I'm beatrice dressed as hero.....
Problem is i don't like the way beatrice dresses...I'm a bith trying to dress...innocently? Its complicated metephore on how i don't love myself enough.
This is rough. gonna think it through over some Ulong tea. yum.<3
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Hayley Michelle

GLEEKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

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Going to home pre-pairing to watch some EPIC Glee...only to find that my DVR has deleted it.

That is All..


Hayley Michelle


JK! JK! Saw it alst night...Not my favorite...but then again, how can anyone hate leperchans!
MORE ME TIME!!!!
(ME=Rachel Barry <3)


SO WORRIED FOR NEXT EPISODE THOUGH! I DO NOT look foward to being violated by Franken-Finn...but oin the bright side... KLAINE FIRST TIME! <3


Oh my beloved Harry Potter Star...you will be mine. XP
Oh fan girl -gasm.
TIME TO BE SERIOUS!
I have a lot to make up for theater...sooo it will all be on my other blog! YAY INTERVIEWS! <3

LOOK FOWARD TO IT! Also working on possibly cutting a Jazz EP...<3

Hayley Michelle

LATE EEP!

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Ok! This is realll late! Just got back from Piano/Voice lessons.
Learning Rochmoninoff.
Curse his name. TOO LONG!!! Nice music though. XP

Thinking about a blog where i talk about the crazy stuff my family does. Seriously had a modern family moment.

I think i should g for family theropy..it ould do WONDERS for my writing.
Strarting in the mourning!
Wish i copuld blog more and spell check, but i have to go to bed because in the mourning i have to get up early and practice piano! YAY!!!!! <3 <3 <3

Hayley Michelle

JAzzz OBESSION

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So i am SO now obessed with Jazz music. So far i've already ritten 4. TODAY. I cant stop listening to Regina Spektor, Adelle, Bijork, Miles Davis, Charlie Parker, Amy WhineHouse,Cole Porter....AGH!

SO BEAUTIFUL! COLE PORTER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I need help. XP

I need to learn professional Saxiphone. NOW.
OH! AND LOUIS ARMSTRONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Not the moon guy, the AMAZING BIG BAND/JAZZ GUY!!!!

Really excited.I dont't have a jazz voice, but i love the styleeeee. So i gonna add myself to it. Idk, jsut a fun thoguht.
Its so fuffilling.

GOing to get spelling help,. sorry about this blog.

Back to music! yay!!!!!

Hayley Michelle

I'm not selling my music, therefore i can't play it

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Not such a good day. Got called a gimp again. god...

I talked to Aladren about some stuff i need to work on.

I went home and i talked to my parents, about it...got into another fight with them.

So now i can't take music lessons anymore because i don't want to sell my music, i want to play it. However, i don't want to go to Collage for Music, because there isn't a degree for what i want.

Then my dad said i don't take anything serious. He says that i dont have apeice of music written down..WHICH IS A LIE BECAUSE I HAve all my lyrics AND CHORDS DOWN SAVED TO MY COMPUTER AND SEVERAL OTHER PLACES! i HAND WRITE ALL MY MUSIC, NOTES AND MELODY...

He said he's stopping my music lessons...and that my jazz song i wrote is terrible.

Not feeling so good right now...

Hayley michelle

I'm ugly when i cry

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Not such a good day today. I am uch a bad mover, i hate it. I want to get better, and i try but its never good enough.
I thought about posting this on the pretty project, but something told me it was alittle to off topic for that blog.
I feel like I disapiont Aldren. I don't know. Ms.Mack had us run fast in circles singing "Mary had a little lamb".
I couldn't do it.
I couldnot keep up with everyone, and i was panting.

And i jsut remeber looknig at Ms.Aladren, sand she looked so disapionted.
Perhaps it's all in my head...but maybe not.
I haven't been myself lately. I'm tired...I used to be such a try hard, but i'm getting B's...i cant sing anymore...i'm jsut mopey and sad. I don't know what's gonig on and i don't know what i'm doing anymore.
I don't know anything.

Aladren also had as do a mask exersize..where we sit face close to the mirror and stare at our own reflecion's eyes for 5 minutes streight.

I looked at myself..all sweaty with my roles of fat hanging out..and i just started crying. I could stop crying until i got back to Aladren's room.
I jsut looked at myself, and i didn't like what i saw.

I think that's the lowest piont anyone can go to...when they can't even like themselves anymore.

And to make matter's worse i got paired up with Kelsey for aprt 2 of the excersize.

Kelsey..is so talented and pretty. And from what i know..she is so confident and happy with herself. We had to see the other person as the new face in the mirror and let it effect us...but yet at the same time, its about the other person...

And that made me cry even harder. Becaseu here is this idea person that i would love to be...
and pretending that that would be what i could see in the mirrror jsut broke me down...becasue i know i can't be that.

And i made her cry. I told her that she was very beautiful. She just stareted crying too. Now great, i'm making everyone cry. God i'm terrible.

In math today, someone said i probably looked ugly when i cry. I'm not sure why we were talknig about it..but we were. And that made me sad.
I didn't cry..because i'm used to things like that..but it hurt alot.

And in Spanish i was talknig to Aleshia about how halloween is the best because tyou get to be a kid again.
I said "Halloween is the best! You get to go out in a scary costumes and get free candy!" and a girl...i can't say her name because i'm not stoping to her level said
"Or you could jsut go outside look ing like that and get fre candy".

I think that hurt the most today...
This girl hates me. I don't even know why! She always talks about me and laughs behind my back in math class...I don't get it.
Why does everyone hate me?
I think it's because i'm loud. I'm trying to change, i really am...but like i said. Nothing i do is ever good enough.

I like Halloween because its the one day i year i get to put on make-up and be someone else .

Hayley Michelle

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