Friday, April 29, 2011

SOCIAL SUCICIDE: I ATE THE BOMB

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I am in so much pain right now...i just commited social sucicde. No joke. i was really excited about today, haing fun; I just got a new confedence level (randomly. I think its because i beat one of my arch-rivals from my old school in an essay contest i entered..."illegaly") (my old school's contest. i entered, even though i dont go there anymore! EAT THAT KELSEY FASULO!!!!)

so i decided to go and have myself a little "celebration". I went to the mallwith one of my friends and we went to go see "HOP" (terrible btw), and then...i saw it....

a choclate chip cookie, diped in choclate.......

at the time it seemed so amazing.......and then......now....

IM SHITTING PUPIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh, and i got my period. I WANT TO CHOKE BABIES!

and the worst part?

SOMEONE FROM MY OLD SCHOOL CAUGHT ME EATING IT! I thoguht i was going to die.

 I have this problem of eating in front of people, and i'm slowley starting to get over it...but that was socail sucide for me. a fat girl, seen eating something that fattenting.....

i am never eating at the movies ever again.

I feel so terrible, and i am stilling shitting puppies. PAINNNNNNNNNN>


I took like, 4 midol's. god, i cant belive i ate that.....uggg, im such a fat ass. IDAESKFJESDOGHRJOIPEA{O$I(#&%Q)_FGUEWTY$*()%QO/

ugg. Recently i've been flipping the shiz. I mean, this week i've had 2 mental breakdowns...IN THE SAME DAY!

i eman, ya, i get my weekly mental breakdown...but now its happening like, almost everyday!

I want to go for ytheropy or something...but i dont have time. I'd have to drop something, and i cant do that. I need to work on my carrer. I mean, i can get used to it...hopefully.

I dont know...Do those depression medications work? hahaah, MANIC DEPRESSIVE.
XD

Ok ok, but seriously...no joke.
I want/need badly theropy. My parents dont like discussing it thoguh. maybe i'm gonig crazy, or loosing my mind...or trippnig on midol. STILL IN PAINNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN>

God, i think this is the most personal blog i have ever written! hahaha.......
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hi.


SOCIAL AKWARDDDD.

ok, bye now. Excuse me while i go and punch bunnies to relize my pain.
IT HURTSSSSSSSSSS>


Hayley Michelle

Sunday, April 24, 2011

EPCOT

OOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I jsut remember....

i have to tell you about "hayley's death march of death".

So epcot, (aka: death march of dedathly death) was epic.win. for.hayley.

So let me take you...to a journey through all the worlds: (ending with an epic surprise for all!!!!)

MEXICO: land of the mayanas...and martinis. My mom decided to drink her way through the worlds, so Mexico is allllll about my mummy. My dad bought a sombrero, and i played in a mariachi band (guitar part). <3

NORWAY: Malestrom, is such an epic ride. Got lots of pictures with trolls and a viking oprea hat. (again, epic win for hayley).

CHINA: hayley got alllllooootttt of food. Shared pot stickers and honey-seseame chicken with her daddy, and then bought the entire store of cheap bracletes and jewlery.

GERMANY: Gavul! Mom enjoyed germany VERYYYYYY MUCH. (german beer= happy middle aged woman).

ITALY: Bonjorne! Italy was beautiful, and me being such  a good tourist, got pictures with everything. and i mean everything.

AMERICIA: Ok....(PS, Americia is the epitamy of all jokes for this blog, so please, if you are easly offended...than skip to thhe next country. thank you and have a majical day). What kind of conisided &%#%#& puts a land called "Americia"...in americia! You want to see amercia, guess what? YOUR IN AMERICIA ALREADY! The idea of the worlds was to try the cultures of the countires BESIDES AMERICIA! But what do they do? THEY PUT IN FUDGING AMERICIA! I was looking at the menue for americia (Faithy was hungry for a hamburger). It was so fattenting (hot dog, hamburger, fries. turkey leg). It looked more like Whale country instead of Americia. I was so ashamed. (THIS IS A TRIBUTE TO ALL NATIONS....BUT MAINLY AMERICIA). Seriously, put something INTERESETING ther istead of americia. I mean, you already have the hall of presidents and libirty center in the magic kindom. PLUS YOUR ALREADY IN FRICKEN AMERICIA...so, ya.

JAPAN: Got a pearl,and my dad bought a kimono. I dont understand why he could buy a kimono and not me...but its ok. I got pictures of my dad in a dress. XD all is fair in love and war.

MARRACCO: Marracco is beautiful. TEPcot was (and is) having a flower festival and it was so pretty. Marracco had butterfly utopia's and it was awsome. Many pictures will soon be coming your way.

FRANCE: A personal favorite of mine. I got the words to "La viene rose" by Edith Piaf. (can never spell her name right...) We ahve the same type of verbrato, so its a good song for me. I love france. Everything. The smell. Thje food. the people. Its were i truely belong. <3

UNITED KINGDOM: there were SOOOOOOOOO many people from brittian at disney (i met a guy from astrali too!). Anyway, went to a beatles tribute band, (awsome) also got picture with my favorite disney character ever: ALICE! (i had an alice costume on and i bought an alice doll) <3

Now....for the finally....the one...the only..... CANADA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Hayley hated canada. First of...it smelled. (usally its england that smell due to the fish, but no. it was canada). I have nver met a country so boring. I went to see the Canada tribute movie they had as a "fun ride for all ages", and i fell asleep. It was SO BORING. My parents wanted to eat in canada, i didnt. I remeber last time i went there, they tricked me into eating a bunny. AND RIGHT AROUND EASTER TIME TOO! IS THAT HORRIBLE OR WHAT?!?!/ AND I THOUGHT I WAS SICK AND TWISTED< THOSE CANADIANS ARE OUT OF CONTROL! ITS A BUNYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY. (poor thumper, first bambi's mom and now him too? WHATS NEXT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!)
Also, Canada was in the flower festival too. There are no canadian princess, so they didnt really have anything interesting. And my friend had an allerigic reaction to cananda.

I wanted to by a canada shirt, as proof that i went to canada, but it was ugly and cheap. so....ya.

My feet hurt SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much, lmfao, ya. Epcot march of death is good for loosing calories, terrible if you like living.

<3
<3
<3

Also did i mention the weather? OH MY GOD I THOGUHT I WAS GOING TO DIE. + humidity, the tempeture was 112. and i was wearing a dress. with a sweter cardigian thingy.... i was melting!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I swear, you could fill an ocean with all that sweat. I dont understand how people in florida do it! Do they even breathe?

Going to google that now....ok. byeee. (lost my tran of thoguh, SQUIRELLL!!!!) 'hahaahah, ok, but seriously, i need to start un-packing.

see you all soon, (as in the next few hours)

Hayley Michelle <3

TAKE ME HOME

PG=100

hola, mi amigos.
I missed you all very very VERY much. Had a BLAST in disney, and i miss it even more.

What did i do...hmm....i had a whole speech prepaired about what i waws going to say, and i just forgot all of it...so my vacation?

fun.
The last day? horrible.

it was like, the car ride from hell.

I ate like a pig on my vaction. I even had chinese food (SUPER FATENING): honey-seaseme chicken and i had a pot sticker. I am never eating that much ever again.
(but it was so good).

Epcot was awsome. I cried on" its a small world "(Kingdom Keepers ruined it for me. I like my brains and flesh on my body, not ona platter, thank you very much.) I got offered a job twice. (not really offered, but was told id be an awsome disney person). Found a disney arts scholar ship thingy and applied. ummm....god, im so drained of energy. The car ride was 18 hours.

My friend had a panic attack in the car and tried to jump out of the moving car thast was travling  at 80mph. (i told you, car ride from hell). And her boyfriend (jackass Joe as i like to call him) cursed me off through a text and called me a fat ass cow that thinks she's hot shit but is like vinny's ass (a pervy fat kid in my old school. burn). But its ok, it hurt, but they wont last, i know it, so it didnt faze me in the least.

I didnt mean to hurt her (its why he cursed me off): I am accident prone to everyone around me. Me and my friend, faith, every time i went near her, she hurt herself: ran into something, accidently got hit by something....it was freaky. I did alot of tanning and scene work (memorization). my friend is auditioning for the program on tuesday i think.....

anyways, god im tired, .....e i wanna be back in disney. in the grabnd floridian they let me play on their Stienbech, it sounbded AMAZING.

i cant think of anything else to put down,,,,,....if i think of anything, ill get back to you.

ok, sienora for now:

Hayley Michelle

Friday, April 15, 2011

THE LAST BLOG...like, EVERRRRR

Pg=100

i kidm, i kid. this is not the last blog. really.
Its jsut my last for a few days. going away to DISNEYYYYYYY.
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
omg, i love disney.
I
am
the
disney
kid.

Always was, ands still am. I am getting a job there senior year in the arts department during the summer (i smell scholarshipppp) and...ya.

Me and disney? we're tight yo. Tight like....(insert inapropriate joke about your mom).
XD

so anywayz, getting packed. again. If your going ANYWHERE, you HAVE to look FABULOUS. Ok, now i'm stalling,. my parents want me to move this stuff, but i told them this was for school.
god im an ingratful child......
oh well.

anywhooooooooooooo, STALLING STALLING STALLING>
STALIN!

I did an essa yon compairing him to hitler. funnny storyyyyy. hopefully got a good grade. it.was.EPIC.

hha, have you ever seen me do my hitler impersination? hahahaha, jewish girl impersonating htiler...good one....hahahahaa.

God this blog is so offensive.

Exited to be doing Freshmen showcase. Go jessicia and Gabe! Our play is gonna ROCK LIKE A ROLL! (or roll like a rock...idk...what was the expression again?). hahahaha, it will be
PREFCECTTTTT.

Trying to phco-analysis it.
is that bad?
Good ?
Color coating?

I am obsessed with color coating.
Is there something for that like...AA?

"Hi, my name is Hayley and i am a color coat-addict."

hahahaa, speaking of AA....(actually this has nothing to do with AA, jsut reminded me of this. i actually dont know why, but it does). Deciding to do theropy. Especially Group theropy.

I like group theropy. Its when your surounded with a bunch of crazy people like you, you all talk about how much your life sicks, then your told that it doesnt suck and you rjust complaining, and then in the end we end up balling our tears out because we are terrible human beings.

=)

fun...right?
hahaha, you know the guy that was "the best phscologist/theropist? ever was high? like...all the time?"
XD

Personally,. i think the best damn theropist person thingy is Dr. Drewpinsky.
<3
<3
<3

in my play, Cages for Animals, Freedom for Sale I have a character based on Dr.Drewpinsky.
his name is "Dr. Sy Cohen"

rofllllll, makes me laugh EVERYTIMEEEE.

Hopefully off book on the Freshmen showcase peice before break ends. I like being perfection. <3

Now looknig into acting, and interested in directing. I love bossing people around. I know thats not what directors do (i mean...they sorta do), but i like the feel and power a director has.
Me likey power.

I want to find someone who doesnt. lmfao, HI MS.ALADREN.

I doubt that she'll read this over the break, but anyway, HI ALADREN BABIESSSSSSS.

lmfao, i saw a pair of twin babies at the mall a few days ago, LMFAO they were SOOOOOOOOOO cute!
wow this is a long blog.
and its really random too. WOWWWWWWWWWWW> i have lots of thoguhts.

SEXY TRANSITION>
(HAHAAHAH!)

Do any of you watch What-the-buck>? he is amazing! I love him, GO BUCK!
anywhoooooooooooo, today was "silence day" for many who are forced into silence about their secuality. i tried my darndest but i failed.
Epically.
Grrrr, but i lasted almost the whole day.

I dont understand why people told me it was "stupid". dont they get it? Its fighting the power. either join us or shut your god damn moth fudging lips.

God, people are SO rude.
LMFAO.

Decided to write a song about how much a hate the banjo called:
"how much i hate the banjo", played...on the banjo.

Also i may be going to CANADA (the enemy) this summer to make an award-worthy documantry called "'CANADA: too good, for to damn long"
or
"CANADA: whats up, eh?"

hahaha, god im so offensive.
Rarw! (dinisour racism).
XD

I hope dont run into any zombies over spring break. that would be bad.
still stalling. still stalling.
lmfao, hahaha. so anywayz, my dad is reading my blog now. XD
haha, jsut told me....something.
ZONEDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD.

Sorry if i offend you (he told me to not be a bad person). (too lateeeeeeeeeeeeeeee).
swwy.

Anywho, i have a plan for when the zombie  revolution comes. (when it does. because it WILL happen).
First, i am dumbing myself down. Zombies want brains, and if you dont have a brain then they have to leave you alone..right. (duh, smart me).
Also, i am stocking up on amo and salt and sowing needles and wika stars.
<3
BAMF! Done and done. I am safe and so iz my
BRAAAAAAAAAAINNNNNNNNNNNSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS.

ok, ok. this blog is the LONGEST BLOG EVER.
is there a like....riply's belive it or not like that? "Worlds lngest blog...ever".
hahaha, i would SO do that. God i have a lot of random thoguhts.
ETHWRIUEW
F

sorry, my phone jsut vibrated and it freaked my out, forgot i had it in my pants pocket. hahahaah, funyyyy.
calling muh buddy, travle buddy, best friend forever buddy, faith.


she says hi.

running out of topics. ok bye.


Hayley Michelle

(PS: HAVE A KICK A$$ SPRING BREAK EVERYONE!!!!!!!!!!!)

Thursday, April 14, 2011

QUEEN OF THE BLOG (aka...lord googoo?)

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I think im suppusoed to be writing journals..but i dont know what play we're supposed to be reading..?
 anyone know?
anywho, had freshmen auditions todayu
FUN

Cant wait! I dont really care about casting, im just looking foward to being in it. Being a part of something is better than be ing nit-picky about parts. I love all the plays we're doing, so it will be really good.
<3

Anywho, aparently i am "Queen of the non-sense". according to many a friend. hahaha, i get that alot.
<3
anywho, i guess i ramapage alot.
God, im so wierd looking back at my bogs.
IM WHINEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY>
swfjsedkgta

hahahahaah, lol. Wow, haven't used that word in a while. ha. anywayzzzz, im just really happy that i have watchers/readers/crazy people like me/ youuuu people! ITs awsome.
SO THIS ONE IS FOR YOU!

haha, if i am tlike lady gaga, does that make me lord googoo?
Laddy Gaga...Lord googoo?
Empropr baby face?
ha.
anywho, ran out of thoguhts.
so ya.
PENGUIN.
that wasd the most random thoguht EVER.
okay, this is offically byez.

Hayley Michelle

(PS)
Going on spring break so i wont be blogging for a while, swwy. dont think they have internet service in...DISNEYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYy.

ahah, ok bye.

(PSS)
OH YA! ONE MORE THING! I was offered to write a play for my old highschool...FOR MONEY!
So gonna try working on that, and...ya. <3

ok. bye now.
my fingers hurt from typeing. byez!

Hayley Michelle






Wednesday, April 13, 2011

Im swwry

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I want to apologize for my most recent blog (GAY=100) (i took it down. that bad). I had missed used the word "gay", and i am sorry. i'm very un-cultured, (shocker), but its true. So i decided to educate myself and did a little research on the word and this is what i found:


- noun

a homosexual person, especially a male.
- adverb
 
in a gay manner.

Origin:
1275–1325; 1950–55 for def. 5; Middle English gai  < Old French < Germanic; compare Old High German gāhi  fast, sudden


gay·ness, noun
non·gay, adjective
qua·si-gay, adjective


1. gleeful, jovial, glad, joyous, happy, cheerful, sprightly, blithe, airy, light-hearted; vivacious, frolicsome, sportive, hilarious. Gay, jolly, joyful, merry  describe a happy or light-hearted mood. Gay  suggests a lightness of heart or liveliness of mood that is openly manifested: when hearts were young and gay. Jolly  indicates a good-humored, natural, expansive gaiety of mood or disposition: a jolly crowd at a party. Joyful  suggests gladness, happiness, rejoicing: joyful over the good news. Merry  is often interchangeable with gay : a merry disposition; a merry party; it suggests, even more than the latter, convivial animated enjoyment. 2.  brilliant.
1.  unhappy, mournful.
In addition to its original and continuing senses of “merry, lively” and “bright or showy,” gay  has had various senses dealing with sexual conduct since the 17th century. A gay woman  was a prostitute, a gay man  a womanizer, a gay house  a brothel. This sexual world included homosexuals too, and gay  as an adjective meaning “homosexual” goes back at least to the early 1900s. After World War II, as social attitudes toward sexuality began to change, gay  was applied openly by homosexuals to themselves, first as an adjective and later as a noun. Today, the noun often designates only a male homosexual: gays and lesbians. The word has ceased to be slang and is not used disparagingly. Homosexual  as a noun is sometimes used only in reference to a male.
Hayley Michelle

Monday, April 11, 2011

THE GOATTTTTTTTTT

Finished the goat.

LOVE
THE
ENDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

YAY DEAD THINGS!!!!

Sorry, but i totaly sw it coming...i actually pictured it more of a RHPS thingy where they're at dinner and someone brings up "Slyvia" and Stevie goes
"Well...thats a tender subject..."
hahahaah, but it was awsome.

PROBLEM! PROBLEM! 5 PAGE ESSAY! PROBLEM!

I'm deffinitly writing my essay on the goat (with Parental Perrmission, of course), but need a topic! Gotta choooseeeee one!~
he he he.
(akward duckies laugh)
hahah, goats too!

<3
<3
<3

Hayley Michelle

Goatttyyy

Got permission from parents to read it, they're gonna email Ms 2nighttttt.
so here is muh journal on it:

goat sex.

the end.



hahaa, jk. lmfao, ok. now for real, the goat is very interesting. i mean, its not jsut about beastiality..i think it has a deeper meaning, but i just dont know what yet. Reading more I got one last scene. So far, its awsomeeeeeee.

This title is totlly irrelevent to the this blog. enjoy.

PG=100

couldn't think of what to call this blog.
rawr.
Imma dinosaurse.

I wonder what actually killed the dinosaurses? i dont think a metor...i bame canada.
idk....ummmm.......ya.
NEW TOPIC!

Worked on destroying the set today.
fun. (sarcasm to the highest levle).

my keyboard is stickkkkkyyyyyy.

anywho, worked with my carpenter friends, why r all the guys there HOT!?!??!!?

OHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! Speaking of which....ITS BEEN 55 DAYS SINCE I'VE KISSED ANYONE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Yah!!!!!!!!!!! (Still keeping up my no boys movement).

But 4 realz, they r cute. hahaha.

i need 2 get stronger. had an apple today. yummy.
lmfao, i ran out of stuff to talk about.
ok,
BYEZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ
Hayley Michelle <3

Sunday, April 10, 2011

The stupid Ramapages of...HAYLEY MICHELLE

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I was thinking about what Aladren said a few days ago "Do you think of stupid questions to ask?" Well, I dont really...but now that i think about itr..i have a TON of stupid questions to ask. So here they, so i dont have to ask them again. If you have the answer, please tell me because i dont have them.
1. What came first, the chicken or the egg?
2. Why do they said "Chicken or the egg" instead of "The egg or the chicken"?
3. How do you pronounce "Dramaturgy"?
4. Why is "The fear of long words" so long? (The term for "Fear of Long words is: Hippopotomonstrosesquipedaliophobia  )
5. What makes a stupid a question a stupid question?
6. What happens when we die?
7. If a person owns a piece of land, do they own it all the way down to the center of the earth?
8. If you mated a Bulldog with a Shitsu would you get a ***?
9. Why are they called stairs inside but steps outside?
10. If the professor on Gilligan's Island can make a radio out of a coconut, why can't he fix a hole in a boat?
11. Why does Goofy stand on two legs when Pluto remains on four? They're both dogs.
12. If Wile E Coyote has enough money to by all that Acme crap why doesn't he buy his dinner?
13. If corn oil is made from corn and vegetable oil is made from vegetables. What is baby oil made from?
14. Why do dogs get mad i f you blow in their face, but when you take him on a car ride he sticks his head straight out the window?
15. The Scarecrow got a brain, Tin Man got a heart, Lion got courage, Dorothy got home, what did Toto get?
16. What do sheep count when they can't get to sleep?
17. Why is an alarm clock going "off" when it actually turns on?
18. If an ambulance is on its way to save someone, and it runs someone over, does it stop to help them?
19. Why are Softballs hard?
20. Where in the nursery rhyme does it say humpty dumpty is an egg?
21. Why do they sterilize needles for lethal injections?
22. If the #2 pencil is the most popular pencil, why's it still #2?
23. What color would a smurf turn if you choked it?
24. Where's the egg in an egg roll?
25. Why aren't blue berries blue?
26. Where is the lead in a lead pencil?
27. Why is Greenland called green when it is covered in ice?
28. Are Robin and Batman really gay? Or is it jsut their names?
29. when will this list end?
30. Are these question stupid enough? Or not stupid enough? too stupid?

Hayley Michelle







Wednesday, April 6, 2011

Nutrition

PG=100

 Nutrrition.
The class i have been dreading the most.
it has come like the pleague. Dark, and evil, terrifying and deadly.

I am not unhealthy, i am obease.
I am dreadinggggg telling everyone my wieght. i wont. cant i  lie?

i hate hate hate HATEEEEEEEEE talking about this...but it must be said.

I dont have an eating disord: i'm jsut wierd.

Jsut because i dont like eating, makes me have "anorexia" or "belemia" .
I dont like throw up.
its gross and damadges your vocal chords.

And i do eat....sometjimes not enoguh because i'm working, but i do in fact eat.

I hate eating. it makes me feel terrible.

To me, food is not a neccisity. It is a want.

I have been to fat camp before.

I have been to guidence a BILLION TIMES about this.

I have been called to the nurse TOO MANY TIMES TO REMEBER about this.

And yet, it has come again. Anually like a holiday celbrating canadian banjos and zombie and hobos and basketballs.

(scary right?)

But i also hate complaining about it.
Its the worst.
I dont want to be..."that girl"/
"that one, that leans on everyoe like a crutch"
"That girl that needs extra attention and help because she jsut cant get it"

But its so easy becoming that girl..and once you are her...i dont think you can change back.

I have so many issues with me...but an eating disorder is not one of them.
I understand that people are conserned, but most dont care.
I remember in my old school, when i was first develpoing the loss of all apitite, that i was looking for help. A way out...and i was talking to someone who i could tell anything to....and she said
"I thought anerexic girls were skinny".

So that is why i have cats instead of friends.

Most people turn to food as a savior.
Carl marx said "Religion is the opiet of the people".

But he was wrong.

Its food.

Hayley Michelle

Tuesday, April 5, 2011

One of them.

Ok. so remember how i said iw as gonna do a little "creative writing" at least once a day? well, here it izzz!!!!!
<3
<3
<3

This is a one of the scenes from my play, (work in process) "One of them":
kkz. here it iz. enjoy!


CARRISA: Everyone has to die eventually, dad! But when i die? When i "move to the country no travler retern from" ? I will be content in that death!

ANGER: Your not gonig back there.

CARRISA:  You can't do that.

ANGER:  Watch me. The only way your going back there is over my dead body.

CARRISA:  I'm fine with that.

ANGER: God, what the hell were you even thinking? I dont even know you anymore! You are a stranger in my presence! You...you are not my daughter.

CARRISA:  Dad....

ANGER:  Don't call me that! You lied, you tricked, you scammed, you....

CARRISA: I what? Lived? Fallowed my dream? Yes, if that's what i did so terrible, then yes. that's exactly what i did. I defied your "offical decree" that no child of yours can have a dream.

ANGER:  Dreams are things you only think to yourself in sleep! and when you wake up, they are gone.

CARRISA:  Then i want to be asleep forever! I never wanna wake up! When...when i'm there, i'm happy dad. Dont you want your little girl to be happy?

ANGER:  I want her to stay here, and study the bible, and go to the school we pay for, and get a good job working  for Mr.Liez and

CARRISA:  and what else? drop dead? I'm sorry...but i can't do that.

ANGER:  Then get out of my site! go somewhere, anywhere. go to your...country of...no returning..or whatever you said.

CARRISA:  It's shakespeare dad. The land no travler doth return from.

ANGER: Again, with the art! Just stop, Carrisa.

CARRISA: No!

ANGER:  Enoguh with all of the art talk! We are simple people, Carrisa. We dont need any of that shit, and we wont tollorate it!

CARRISA: Who is we dad? you? Cuz i for one, am not part of that "we". i strongly disagree!

ANGER:  You want art? Go to hell and make art there. You can have all the art you want there.

CARRISA:  You dont understand! There is no heaven, nor hell! Its..its all just nowhereville! And there wll i die, i want to  retire to a little house on the edge of the sidewalk in the heart of nowerville.  i'll set down my own belongs by my bloody feet, tired of walking the harsh roads life bestowed infront of me. My back bone of strength. my heart of steel. my precious memoires. And when i look upon them...i dont want to see a dead girl. I want to see someone who lived. I'm sorry, dad, that i wasn't the golden child. I'm sorry im not the snooze-fest, studious christan girl you wanted me to be! I'm not going to be you!  I'm not going to be another clone, a zombie! I...i will be living, breathing, on the edge, existing! and you cant stop me!the dead have nothing on me. Your powers of decite and sorrow cant touch me. i am alive. and god damn me to say so, butr i will live forever! Even when i am gone. Ashes to ashes, dust in the wind. I will have lived on forever...and you will have never lived at all.