N3RD SONGGGG

This is my Nerd song that i  promised everyone on facebook. I Think its pRETTY epic!!!

So here it isssss: ENJOY

VERSE: I got my/ big glasses with the thick black rim/ I got my 80’s Scooby-doo t-shirt tuck in my/  mom jeans/ with high top sneaks/ got the tap around my glasses and I look pretty neat/ got/ x-box/ cooling off from last night/ from my/ inter-galactic online fight/ with/ the boy next door/ who just got the chills/ cuz he/ just saw my epic gaming skills/ I kicked his butt in Halo: reach/ L.A. Noire and Fable III/ but/ When we got to portal/ I was so immortal/ Defeating Wheatley then Co-op mode/ He came over some/ Rock-band/ after I beat his high-score/ we played Broadlands/ Batman: Arkam Asylum/ Can’t wait for the sequel/ so we just played Conan/

PRE-CHORUS: And All last night/ it was super-awesome total hot nerd fight/ cuz/ in the of geek-atutide I WIN/ Again/

CHORUS: So You can/ Call me a nerd/ Cuz that’s what I am/ So it all you want/ I don’t give a damn/ You can call me a geek/ but that’s not me/ cuz nerds are a different species/ of/ out-casts/ coming from the past/ cuz every one is secretly/ a LOSER/ like  you/ like me/

VERSE:Got my/ ANIME-NEXT/ ticket purchased/ and NORUTO can go suck it/ cuz/ Full metal Alchemists/ Kicks its butt/ every day of the week/ ya/ If we want me/ I’ll be in the book store/ checking out/ the manga boys/ that/ look Pilipino/ but are actually American/ and part wear-wolf/ no that’s twighlight/

PRE-CHORUS:And/ Youwi for yuri/ That’s all I really have to say/

CHORUS: So You can/ Call me a nerd/ Cuz that’s what I am/ So it all you want/ I don’t give a damn/ You can call me a geek/ but that’s not me/ cuz nerds are a different species/ of/ out-casts/ coming from the past/ cuz every one is secretly/ a LOSER/ like  you/ like me/

BRIDGE: I’ve collected all the Pokémon/ from Abra to Zubat/ And all the Yugi-oh cards/ Hot wheels/ BEAT THAT!?? Cuz/ I’m the queen of all the nerds/ and/ Role-playing is not absurd cuz/ I like playing Star trek/ and doing the SULU DANCE!/ And filing the internet with more/ stupid cats/ with more stupid cats!!!

CHORUS: So You can/ Call me a nerd/ Cuz that’s what I am/ So it all you want/ I don’t give a damn/ You can call me a geek/ but that’s not me/ cuz nerds are a different species/ of/ out-casts/ coming from the past/ cuz every one is secretly/ a LOSER/ like  you/ like me/ like  you/ like me/ like  you/ like me/ like  you/ like me/ like  you/ like me/ I don’t know how to end this SONG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The end.

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHH

LOOOSINGGG ITT!!!!
I have theater finals tomorrow and I can’t eat anything. I need to study. Every time I go to eat food I think about how it’s un-healthy, not green, and I feel sick.
This usually happens when I get stressed.
THE INFORMATION IS NOT STICKING IN MY BRIAN!!!!!
RAWR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
IM LOOSING IT!!!!!!
I also just had the most mean and depressing conversation with my parents ever. I just realized the entire world is superficial and part of the "plaster parade" and I hate the universe.

My parents want me to find new friends because they are "poor and ugly".
I just don't get it. They think that they are all jealous of me and are going to rob me and hate me because I’m "pretty".

They don’t hate me; I’m pretty sure that’s the opposite of FRIENDS.
They're just mad because I hang out with nice people.
Especially my mom. She always wants me to be "popular" and stop "hanging out with losers".

So what, they’re not on the fudging cheerleading team, but in the long run they are going to be some-what more successful than half the kids in my school.

I just don’t get it; why are people so judging on looks? I mean, I understand; and being a hypocrite I think it’s wrong even though I do it too.

I just...HATE THE WORLD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
My mom wants me to do this "Quick Trim" diet with her.
Yuk.
How about...no. But I can’t tell her that, she's my mom.

Thinking about just running away to join a convict or just continue living a lie.

God I hate stupid decisions like that; you can never win!!!!

GRRRRRRR....
REALLLY FLIPPING about theater final. I CANNOT fail!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

Hayley Michelle

My life has flahed before my eyes, and im not impressed. wow.

Just got back from running home. It started raining and lightning and thundering while i was walking home and i freaked. i ran for MY LIFEEE> I saw a tree snap in half. Its down my block, I was scared shitless!!! THAT COULD HAVE BEEN ME!!!
So i RAN, and next thing i know im in my snuggie watching "Amazing Wedding Cakes".
I look outside to see it POURING rain.
And i think: I was out there...and now im here.......???

Ya. If that doesn't burn calories then the canadians have won.

Hayley Michelle

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

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LAST DAY FOR BLOGGING! (not for me!!!!!!!!!!!!!)
Freking out, have to do my essays.
wich reminds me:
GOT TO GO !!!!!!!!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH (insert head explosion)

Hayley michelle

29 out of 53!!!!! CELBRATING WITH DENNY'S!!!!

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i actually hate dennys...but whatever. XP (ohj, stupid, bad, inside joke).
Yesturady was AUDITION NIGHT (wierd...it was actually held in the day. XP) (wow, use that emoto-con alot. haha. XP).
29 out of 53!!!!

That was my Dog Sees God monolugue rating.
<333333333333333333333333333333333

So proud.
Today was the babies birthday.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABIES!
It is also FINISH PLAYS DAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

So...gotta get started on that.
so...ya XP

Hayley Michelle

Torn in the heart

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I'm crying right now SOOOOOOOO much!!!

Dressy Dinner was Beautiful. Ms.Mack did an AMAZING job. She should be an interior desighner. It was beautfiul<33333

Everyone looked like super-models. Miguel was hiding his hickies (or getting in touch with his femenine side. XP. Lmfao, i only pick on him because i can get away with it. no offense. XP)

It was awsome. I have blisters on my blisters, And everyone is going off to collage!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Some of the seniors are going to be in my backyard, others are MILES AND MILES AWAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



I met a new person today: (getting out of sad mode before i cry): Hope. She graduated Last year, i think and is
AWSOME!

She is in Ohio for Playwriting, so we had a long, great, epic talk about it. Got her email, and hopefully we will keep in contact to discuss writing, plays, and Ohio.

She really talked to me alot about Play writing, an d i learned al.ot. I really feel that my knitch is in writing, but i'm very interested in acting and desighn too.

I don't know, but for now i think i'll stick to play writing.
SPEAKING OF SO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAGES FOR ANIMALS: FREEDOM FOR SALE
WILL BE DONE BEFORE MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!


Hayley Michelle

Girlfriend Trainer

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So...hi everyone. I'll talk about Freshie showcase later....(trama n drama n my personaly screw up and my FAT ASS).

I have EXTREAME writers block and its pissing me offffffffffffffffffff.

I mean, i haven't written a good song in 2 weeks! THATS TERRIBLE!

But i think this is the best one i have been able to come up with:

Tell me what you think of it so far: its the best i can do. It's called Girl Friend trainer, i'lll probably post it on youtube later if i decide it doesn't suck. here you go:

VERSE: Are you seriously/ coming to me/ after all the time/ we spent together looking at our history/ are you/ really coming up to me/ and asking/ for advice on how to train your Barbie girlfriend/ its/ not my fault that she is just a little hot mess/ and/ how could I control her flirting crazy antics/ if/ you don’t like the way she is then you can’t change/ only thing to do/ is to dump her Kim Kardashian ass/

PRE-CHORUS: But/who am I to tell you/ what to do/ only the girl you should/ have ended up with/ until Malibu here hitched up on you like a leach/

CHORUS: I’m not gonna teach your girlfriend/ to be more like me/ something’s cant be change/  something’s  should just stay the same/ for here kind of “people” you might need a dog trainer/ Cuz she’s a little female dog and I am the girl you really want/

VERSE: So/ what are you still standing here/ and staring at me/ I told you my answer now will you just leave/ hey/ it’s not my problem if your girlfriend has two left feet/ you’re the one who wanted her over me/ should I care/ that you girl friend won’t let you go out/ no/ I don’t think so/ your life’s not really my problem/ since/ you left me for Cali Barbie/ now crawling back and want me/

PRE-CHORUS:It’s kind of sweet/ that you’ve finally had an epiphany/ that i/ am the girl that should be with/ but seriously/ you/ made up your mind/. And crossed the line/ too many times/ and you can have me back when I die/

CHORUS:I’m not gonna teach your girlfriend/ to be more like me/ something’s cant be change/ and something’s just should stay the same/ for here kind of “people” you might need a dog trainer/ Cuz she’s a little female dog and I am the girl you really want/

BRIDGE: 1/ one thing we need to get straight is that/ 2/ too much talk of your girlfriend just shut up/ 3 words that you can say to her to make your problems go away/ go away

CHOURS: I’m not gonna teach your girlfriend/ to be more like me/ something’s cant be change/ and something’s just should stay the same/ for here kind of “people” you might need a dog trainer/ Cuz she’s a little female dog and I am the girl you really want/

For the First time, i feel nomral =)

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EEEE!!!! I FEEL SO NORMAL!!!!!!!

Had a great rehersal, even thoguh i screwed everything, AND I MEAN EVERYTHING, up...<3

Get yelled at by Aladren again because of my "barbie- toe" addiction, and then i cried in the dressing room and Jess made me feel better.
She's so sweet. <3

All i remember hearing was "Your going to get kicked out of the program".

Of course, tahts not what she said, but i have deformed ears...so i only hear the dramatic, devestating, shitty stuff i dont want to hear.

She said that "She normally gives up on you in Sophmore year...but..."

And i flipped!!!!!!!!!!!!! It was SO DEVESTATING FOR ME!!!

Its just that, i was tring so hard to o what she wanted, but i was kind of blindishly doing it...so i did it wrong.

And if she did it to scare me, or if she ment it...i don't know. All i know is that she SCARED THE LIVING SHIGGLES OUT OF ME!!!!

And then brian came to talk to me about it later. We talked about walls and other stuff, and fatatitude and stuff...

But, no offense to Ms.Aladren...but what Brian had said to me in the 30 minutes we talked, made more sence than everything Ms.Aladren had told me all year.

I mean, He r stuff was INCREDABLY HELPFUL!!! Its jsut that...i think hearing it from peers, and people my age going throguh the same thing...really helped.

I mean, Ms.Aladren still scares me to death...so i wouldn't neciarrily call her a "peer". But  i trust her more than my everything and her opinion means SOOOOOO MUCHHHHHHHHHh to me.
Its jsut most of the time i dont get her opinion. XP

But thats ok. I'm worknig on ittttt
<3
<3
<3

When we were leaving and changing, everyone was bering so....theater like. XP

It made me feel SO normal.
It was just a great feeling. And got some "newish" blocknig today from Gabe/Aladren, and it was AWSOMEEEEEEEEEEEE.

Freshmen showcase?
GONNA KICK SOME BOOTY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hayley Michelle

Ugg

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Parental unit is pissing me off. They are angry at me because i'm tired and upset that i have 4 essays to write tomarrow and that i suck at everything. Actually. its just my Dad thats home............so ya.

He is still repeating his "i've done exactly what you've been doing" speech again.

Still freaking out.

I'm going to ruin my freshmen showcas. It was painful not to laugh. And it was terrible. God, I think i'm to critical some times. But i'm also a nit-picker and insaine...so ya.

Can't please anyone. Broke my sparkle heels. =(

Everyone is mad at me when i'm "fake" (aka, happy). And everyone hates me when i'm normal.

My normal is just usally me crying because I hate my life and I get down on myself "too hard".

Ugg. just...frustration. I'm driving my self INSAINE WITH STRESS>

I just really, really, reallllyyyyyyyy don't want to fail. I want to have perfect grades. really badly. I want to have a perfect GPA.REALLLY BADLY.
And most of all...i REALLY REALLY REALLY REALLLYYY want to be able to look back at my freshmen showcase, and be some what proud of it.
Because at the moment, i just want to go and die because I mess up alot and i don't know how to fix it. Jess and Gabe are awsome for putting up with me,  I would have seriously flipped out on me if i were them.

Ugg, why can't  I just...ugggggggggggg.

Hayley Michelle

IMPORTANT LESSON TIME

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Probably dont have to blog today becauseI stayed after for Freshmen Showcase Tech...but I felt like I didn't do anything.
So i'm blogging.
<3


Learned an important lesson today: (scratch that, LessonS)

1. EAT FOOD BEFORE TECH REHERSAL
2. DON'T TAKE ACEDRINE ON AN EMPTY STOMACH BECAUSE YOU WILL THROW UP
3. PAINT IS HARD TO GET OUT OF BLISTERS
4. DO NOT USE THE SINK IN THE DRESSING ROOM EVER AGAIN
5. NEVER GO TO MRS. SIPIRELLI FOR ADVICE,GUIDENCE AND OR ANYTHING.
6. I SUFFER FROM POST-PMS. EXTREAME POST-PMS.


1. Didn't feel so well today at rehersal. I took a few advil's and was dissy, but made it through. I personally, don't think its "being a hero", Or how everyone likes to say "pushing to hard"... I just think that ill-ness or pain should be ignored. You could get more work done if you put it asside. Also learned that I cannot sit still. Tech rehersal was created so we could tech. i want to tech and help. So next time i will eat so i can help more. Sorry.

2. I think this one is self-explanitory.  When i got home i threw-up alittle...but i'm ok now. <3

3. Got paint on an open blister.

4. I washed my pianted blister out in the Dressing room sink. (My bad. SORRY!) And it clogged. So i used a cup and transfered the water into the bathroom. cup. by. cup. So i unclogged it, but...ya.

5. Personal drama with my wieght obbsession and stuff. I went to Mrs.Sipirelli to talk about it, and she told me i need to "get over it, becasue there is nothing we can really do about it". (alittle incedent about me and my wieght and my friends. All fixed now. We got to go to Mrs.Spinello for peer mediation).

6. So Just to clear this up: I love my parents, their awsome. and I would NEVER talk to them like that, ever! Its jsut that i suffer from Post-PMS. Like, EXTREAME mood swings. I mean, the tiniest things set me off (like a wild goose chase through the school for the Freshmen Schowcase set). And it was just NOT MY DAYYYY.


But i survived! So i'm happy.
<3
<3
<3

Hayley Michelle

TITLE-LESS

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Just got back from Barnes and Nobels.

Going to see my friend in "Hairspray" :tonight at Playhouse 22. Good luck, Jenna!

Finished reading Much Ado About Nothing  By Shakespeare.
It was sooo funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!'
I loved the plot and everything. Next Shakespeare project is  to read is Richard III.

Hahaha, loved it!

<3
<3
<3


So, thasts about it. Nothing wierd/awsome today. <3

ha
ha
ha

Hayley Michelle

Am I Fat?

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Not doing so well today. In english. I finished all my work today so I get to blog.

Friend Drama.

Ugg. I had an appiontment with guidence later but had to post-pone it until monday because another girl involved, my friend Meghan, fainted from an anxiety attack. Me and my friend Jessicia (not in theater) carried her to the nurse. we stayed wityh her there until this period.

so friend drama.

I have 5 people that sit at my lunch table: Emily (from theater), Meghan, John (that stupid guy that got me in trouble. He still fallows me and is friend's with Emily, but I dont talk to him. mad at him for making a cruel jew joke, and other things that i won't discuss online) and Hermineo.

so Hermineo and Meghan hate eachother, I hate John, and Emily dislikes Hermineo and Hermineo isn't nice to emily.

I wasn't in lunch yesturday because i was to busy crying in math, so Hermineo told me that they (John and Meghan) were talking about how fat I am yesturday when I wasn't there.

and I flipped out on Meghan (due to the fact that she was the only one there with me at the time involved besides Hermineo), and Meghan flipped out on Hermineo because she says it was a 'fat lie'.

Meghan said that Hermineo only said that because she wants me not to be friends with Meghan anymore and to start drama, but hermineo says its the truth and only wants to protect me as a friend.

I don't know who to belive and afraid to go back in lunch because i feel really fat and stupid now, and so i'm not talknig to either one of them until we get to guidence and i know who what the truth is.

but I hope Meghan gets better. I feel so bad for her....

Starving!!!!!
Didn't get a chance to go to lunch because i was helping meghan to the nurse.

Hungry. going to the mall after school with jessicia (again, not in theater) and her boyfriend.

going to get a lgiht bite there.....

Ugg! Why did they have to bring up my weight! freaking out.

Hayley Michelle

My Dearly Beloved DoucheBag Stinky Fish

When i went to the Royal Shakespeare class with everyone in theater... i learned a new word;
Douche-bag Stinky Fish.

I doubbed my stupid-ass man-whore ex-boyfriend, Danny Douche-bag stinky fish.

I can never forget what he did to me.

Besides the fact that no one allows me too.

My dad always says we'll "get back together".

Like he did today during dinner.

I spent the rest of the night in the car.

I'm not talknig to dad until he drops douche-bag Stinky Fish from my life.

He doesn't understand...or really know about what he did to me.

After EVERYTHING i did for him....

I cut off my hair for him. I jumped of a cliff. I spilled soda on a girls dress during a halloween party jsut to be near him.
I took him shooting, I took him to a sleepover in the museum of natural History. I took him to private showings of national art museums. I went out of my way to find the one drive-in movie theater in PA, jsut to watch a special showing of Trans-formers with him.
I took him parra-sailing, and scuba-diving. I took him to see his first meteroshower.

What did he do for me?

Told me he "loved me", slept with my best friend, dated my other friends, denied many of our flings, shot wasps at me with his STUPID friends, made fun of me, took ADVANTAGE of me and told me i had no talent and i wouldn't get into the school i am now because i'm a stupid, silly girl.

Why would i waste my time with him?

i wont.
i never will again.

But my dad thinks i'll go "crawling back to him.I always do".

=(

He wants him as his kid instead of me.
He likes him. He doesn't know the misery, and torture and shit he has put me through.

i hat edouche-bag stinky fish. And i hate the fact that my parents think that thhat is the best i can do.

cause I might not have the best self-asteem..but i seserve better then the dirt on the bottom of your basment floor.

I deserve much more then a douche-bag stinky fish.


Hayley Michelle

ITS SATURDAY! SATURDAY! GOTTA GET DOWN ON SATURDAY!!!

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Going to Gabe's house on saturday with Jess to reherse .Not his house, but we'll go to a park or something but MEET at his house. lmfao.

Got 8 PAGES DONE TODAY!!!!

Our set arrives 2marrow.
I'm awsome. <3

Hayley Michelle

Mental retardness

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LONGEST MENTAL BREAKDOWN EVERRRR!!!!!

Seriously;  the kinko's meltdown ended today in English calss.

wow.
I cried the entire dayyyyyyyyyyyy.

=(

Better now.
<3
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<3
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Ms. Aladren really helped. I've just been really stressed lately, need a mental health day PRONTO.

Hayley Michelle

More nerves

My journal B4 explains most of it.,

What i did on play today; rehersed.

the end.

Still freaking out too much to blog correctly.


Please excuse me while i go flip out on my cat about color coating.

bye.
Hayley Michelle

Nerves

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Just got home from having a nervous breakdown in the middle of kinko's.

My cat sprayed on my script so i had to get a new one.
>=(

And i lost it; about highlighters.

I wanted them so i could color coat and my mom wouldnt let me buy the 4 dollar markers.

So i flipped. also ranting about Freshmen showcase, failing, finals, essays, plays and other things.

I've been really stressed out lately.

I just dont want to mess up.

I just feel that when i go out there i am going to laugh.
Laughter is contagious!

I need to start working on the paly in public to see how to resist laughing.

I'm just so nervous. I'm so tired.
I've been working everyday after school with Jessica on the paly.
And my finals, and extra credit. My homework and my other studies. And RSAC and other stress i have upon my shoulders;

its really getting to me.

Today i flipped out at Meghan because i had a string on my dress.

I tell you, i'm losing it.

Bt damn, can't my mind wait to go insaine AFTER freshmen showcase?!?!?

need help.
Freaking out.


Hayley Michelle