SHOUT and MUTTER

Guess wich one i am?!?!?!

Hard?!?!?
Yesssss. (ha.)

That is our new nick-names according to Gabe.

i like them.

Althoguh i prefer Shout-y.

Everything sounds cute when it has a y at the end.
Seriously:

Farty
Gassy
Gunny
Killy
Fucky
Bunny
Hayley

Duh.

XP

Worked on Table work after school with Jess. Had fun. Got through it...sorta. lmfao. Blocking now, gotta get in touch with gabe about the set;

I can't get the round booth, but i ahve 2 sings and 3 doubles.

Whatever; gonna explain tomarrow.
<3
<3
<3


Hayley Michelle

I hate pants. Not as much as Canada, but still a pretty strong hatred.

PG=100

Sitting in my underwear blogging and eating a honey-dew kabob. Everything is better on a stick.
<3

It took me w2 minutes to figure out how to take of my belt; so I just ripped it. (It was a little tight anyways. and ugly too).

I just hate pants;

They are SO restricting. And they itch and rub against your leg. They get sweaty and it always takes you like a few minutes to get them on and off, and then you have to get it in your shoes so that it doesn’t look stupid, unless their flair jeans, then you want them over the shoe. And then you have to make sure you have the right brand and...And...IT’S SO FRUSTRATING!

I seriously just want to live in a dress.
I WILL SOW IT ONTO MY BODY; I give up.

And shorts! Everyone thinks shorts are ok, but they're not.


They pants.

Just shorter.
GREAT, I get itch closer to their then instead of my low legs. Thank you let me right you a hallmark card.

>=(

And everyone always complains; your shorts are too short.

Well, DUH!
They shorts.
They're SUPOSSED TO BE SHORT!
Do I have to spell it out for ya?!?!
S
H
O
R
T

Pequena. Small. Less mass. SHORT!

Seriously, I don’t get people these days.

Yum, honey dew cabob.

Thinking about being a comedian in space.
That would be awesome, seriously; No gravity jokes are the new frontier!
Now, I just have to think of a few.

I bet I can make fun of space food.
I can make fun of allot of things. I've been told I’m good at it.

I've been hanging around jess too much, or I’ve either drank ALOTTT of coffee; I feel REALLLYYY HYPER!

Wannna go jogging.
Its night, and I’ll probably get lost, take a wrong turn, go down the wrong block and get raped, but that’s ok!
I'll be fit. =)

Having a fun day. Thinking about what to wear tomorrow; I seriously don’t want to wear pants.
ugg. ...pants.
But if I wear a dress, Ms.Aladren will yell at me again.

But what if it’s not a fancy dress? I plain black one...with only a few ruffles.....hmmmmmmm.....
idk.

I’m just gonna go naked.
Ya, let’s go with that one.


Hayley Michelle

YOUNG PLAY WRITES SOCIETYYYY

Ok...jsut got my later back.....from the play contest i entered.
DRUMROLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
..................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................................!!!!

i didn't advance in competition...=(

But i got far enoguh to have several profesional play wrights read my play, send me back a full analysis and review; and a letter asking me to re-send it next year with new adaptations along with a new play. <3333

Looknig foward to it.

I know i could have done better; but im proud with what i accomplished.
<3333

Hayley Michelle

Forever is not eternity.

for·ev·er

   /fɔrˈɛvər, fər-/ Show Spelled[fawr-ev-er, fer-] Show IPA

–adverb

1.

without ever ending: to last forever.

2.

continually; incessantly; always: He's forever complaining

e·ter·ni·ty

   /ɪˈtɜrnɪti/ Show Spelled[ih-tur-ni-tee] Show IPA

–noun, plural -ties.

1.

infinite time; duration without beginning or end.

2.

eternal existence, especially as contrasted with mortal life: the eternity of god.

3.

Theology . the timeless state into which the soul passes at a person's death.

I think im gonna go for a BA= BAD ASS DEGREE....Do you know where I can get one?

PG=100

Did work on my monolugue from Dog Sees God.....

It sucks that I have to be bawling my eyes out to be less suckish then I am....

But somewhat...felt good? I don't know if that makes any sense what so ever...but I think it does. Ya, lets go with that one....

idk, but...ya.

Going to see the dance show tonight, and its going to be AWSOMEEE.

can't wait to see everyone.

Gosh, i look so pretttyyyy. <3 <3 <3

Hayley Michelle

(Wow this was a short blog. Probably gonna go post more. This was my silly blog, now...TIME FOR  A SERIOUSNESS BLOG!!! OFF OFF>.....AND AWAY!!!! TO INFINITY AND BEYOND!!!!!!!) (***wosh wosh***)

ITS SO A HARD-KNOCK LIFE

PG=100

My parents are driving me CRAZYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.


They want me to do audition for Annie.


Lets do a pro/Con.

CON:
- too old
- too fat
- cant dance
- it's annie..ned i say more?

PRO
- its an off broadway production in NY.


Dont know waht to do: I like not being too embarressed...but idk!

ahhhh. Parents want me to do it: and i dont know what i want to do.

I want to be me.

TA_DA!

<3
<3
<3


Hayley Michelle

Working on FRESHMEN SHOWCASE

Worked on scene with Jess today.

Jessicia is SO PRETTY. I gave her a teeny-timy makeover 2day, and shje looked AWSOMe on film. (all thnx 2 me!!) <3.

Rehersed.

Thats all i have to say.

Cant wait 2 see everyone else's. Especially Hannah's. Its the only one i havnt seen yet. (rehersal wise). Everyone is gonna do awsome...and i am gonna KICK ASS AND GET MY FRENCHFRY! HIII_YA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Im a ninja.


Hayley Michelle

I am...red tomato.

PG=100

My name is Rosa Pomadora. (this means Red Tomato in Spanish). (also one of my favorite resutrants XP).

Was an extra named "rosa" in The sophmore/junior film, LOOKS AMAZINGGGGG.

So extreamly excited, had a blast filming!!!

Marji is sooo pretty, and Miguel "peed his pants". Emily is awsome, and Michelle...i dont know how she handles it, but she is great. Zari is so funny, and you know she can sing? We were talknig about GLEE.

LMFAO im turing into RACHEL AGAIN!!! AHH CRAZY STALKER FAN RAMPAGE!!!

hahaah, but seriously. Its getting creepy. XP

wow...sooo akward. LOSS OF WORDS.

The dance show is gonna be awsome.

OMG JUST GOT MY LETTER OF EXCEPTANCE FROM RSAC!!!

excited, muy feliz!!! (Im english, dont hate cuz i cant speak spanish! NO HABLO ESPANOL!)

<3
<3
<3


Hayley Michelle

BEST>REHERSAL>EVERRRRRRRRr

PG=100

Stayed after and rehersed lines with Jess today. <3

We were in the cafateria and all...you know...workin and stuff....and then all of a sudden.....

COSMO INFESTATION!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
They aparently were studying for a "Test" in there... quite loudly and rudley to be exact....

but we didn't care. it made it more like a dinner ....you know...loud, annoying people, bad food (aka subway soup. bleh).

I actually found that when me and Jess were eating food...it seemed SOOOOOO REALISTIC! We were really intyo it. I really felt like i was hannah. Best. rehesal. everrrr.


In fact...it was so realisitc....that the cosmo people thought we were actually fighting and STOPED US LIKE A REAL FIGHT!

We had to tell them it was a play we were rehersing for...and then we got kicked out of the cafateria.


But had TONS of fun.
<3
<3
<3


Hayley Michelle

CHIPMUNK CHEEKS...no sex pun intened...

PG=100

hola. Como estas? Yo estoy bueno y es moy malestas.

DONT WORRY! That does not mean i am a molester....(EWW!), its jsut me being spanish and INSAINE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Didn't do anything in spanish! (FELIZ NAVIDAD...WITHOUT THE NAVIDAD PART!). =)

Saw a bitchy girl i knew today while i was waiting for my parents to pick me up at the school She was walking with her pot-head friends to the mall.
She said it looked liked i lost wait... it showed in my face.

I actually did loose wight. Last year i was a size 13!!!! (FATTTTTTTTYYYYY 14!!!)

and now im a size 11. (GONNA BE A 7 IF IT KILLLLSSS ME. or less. You know, what ever my lowest can possibly be.).

But seriously...if my face is smaller now...THEN WHAT THE HELL DID I LOOK LIKE BEFORE! MY HEAD IS HUDGE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! What was i...one of those base-boll boble heads?!?! (Insert insaine in-humanhead bobble here with my hudge insainly in-human head). 'GOD i must have had HUDGE chipmunck Cheeks. (Ive worked my way down to a squirell size.) XP

OMG, people at parties must have been like. "Did you see the entertainment? Her chipmunk cheeks are hudge! lets go see how many nuts we can fit in her mouth!"




OMFGGGGGGG THAT SOUNDS SOOOO DIRRTTTTTYYYYY.

I SO DIDNT MEAN IT LIKE THAT! ROFLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLLL!!!!!!!!!!!!

Yu know...i should probably earse that...but this is a stream of consoiusness...and its to funny to earse.

BUT JUST SO WE ARE CLEAR....THERE NEVER HAVE....OR WILL BE..."NUTS" IN MY MOUTH....UNLESS YOU COUNT A SUNFLOWER SEED AS A NUT...THEN IM SCREWED!
(GOD WHATS WITH ME AND THE SEX JOKES! SLAPS SELF OW!)

NOW GOINg off of caps....


Today i was told that everyone hates me.



yay.....I dont get it. I always thoguht i was a likable person...i guesss not.
ALSO THAT I HAVE BEEN LIVING A LIE! Aparently heels are bad for your...ass?

And my problem is that i only own 2 pairs of sneakers.......and like....more heels then Amilda Marcos. (GO FASHION/POLITICAL JOKE!)

But anyway....ya.
Gonna blog bout muh play now. ...buh-bye.


haha,....nuts. (NO SEX PUN INTENDED!)


<3
<3
<3

Hayley Michelle

PIE is 3.14159 CHERRY...and more lovely SURPRISES! YOU GET A CAR! AND YOU GET A CAR! YOU GET A CAR TOO!

PG=100

Took my SURPRISE END OF CORSE EXAM TODAY!!!!!

...yay......

Working on my Play, Cages for Animals Reedom for Sale.

Surprisingly, excited for the dance show. They are doing stuff that i would actually recognize.

I have this feeling that im on Ms.Mack's bad side, but i'm gonna get on her good side. if.it.killzzzz meh.

I semi-volinteered to get the swim caps and feathers for teh head-dresses...and my grandpa wont let me get his. So im gonig to get them, but i dont think i can get tehm today.

But i really want to help make it a great show....only thing im not lookngi forward to is another disatorous review. After the last one...i dare not touch anything with the word "critic" on it!!!!

I memorized the first 74 numbers of pi!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

also watched Oprah today, I want to be on the oprah show. SO MANY FREE STUFF! (old episode. no more oprah show. GO OWN) (oprah whinfrey network= Oprah whoop-ass nation).

<3
<3
<3


Hayley Michelle

BARBERA STREISAND

PG=100

My world is coming to an end...

I MET THREE PEOPLE WHO DONT KNOW WHO BARBERA STREISAND IS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AND ONE OF THEM IS JESSICIA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!









NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOo



I tried to explain...but i couldnt. It jsut blew my brains out my ear.

ITS BARBERA STREISAND! HOW DO YOU NOT KNOW WHO SHE IS!

IM FLE-CLEMPT! IM FLE-CLEMPT!

They just took a sledge-hammer and smashed it over my heart.
its jsut so shocking....its like saying you dont know your own name.

Also worried now. Today was REALLY WIERD in shop.

THINGS I LEARNED TODAY IN SHOP

Good:I found my center...i think. (Weird thing happened. skip this ginormous list to find out)
           I figured out the diffrence between a frenell and a parcan.
           I found out that we are out of band-aids in the First Aid kit.
          
Possibly Good:  I dress to "fancy" for school. So im just either oging to go to school in a ball gown or a PJ's. (JK ! JK !) gonan find a happy medium. <3

BAD: I aparently have "a wierd back". When Ms.Aladren was doing my wierd "finding a center" thingy, she said something was wierd with my back...or was it my neck...i forgot. Piont is, Im POSITIVE that she said my neck wasnt attached to my body. I am probably wrong, but i swear thats what i heard. AH! IM NECKLESS! The only thing i have left to do is run to a far-far away land called "Sleepy Hallow", and stalk a guy named Icabod and...(etc. etc. too lazy to finish this bad joke. MOVING ON!)

I heard someone say, scholiosoius. And now im worried. I knew a girl who had scholiosus. she had to get major surgury.
Not.
Happening.


RAWR> I WANNA BE A DINOSAURE! (random thoughts always save the day. pickles).

buh-byeeee.
,3

Hayley Michelle

FILTER ON

PG=100

I am now inserting a FILTER in my blog.
I also am now eating pirate booty and crave honeydew.

(I said filter, as in to filter spelling and things people may take the wrong way. I will never filter randomness. ever.)

XP

But...lets get serious everyone....
I know. ME being CEREAL! Ive gone bonkers! Is what your thinking...i am no longer posting anything about my wieght.
ha.

I had a talk with Ms.Aladren today, and i am SLOWLY BUT STEADLY understanding what i need to do to be healthy and loose weight.

I also, need to get over the fear of having everyone know my wieght.
So here it goes.......

My name is Hayley Michelle and i weigh 148 lbs. My BMI is over-weight, and I have the posibility of developing an eating disorder if i keep up wit the way i eat.
I have a problem with eating infront of people, because i feel like a fatty-fatty- fart face.
but im going to start getting over it.

im posting this on my blog because i know its public. and it will always be out there. I need to start getting over the fact that people will "care" about my weight and make fun of me because of it.
That was last year, and the year before, and the year before. But not this year; I've already wasted so much time worrying and feeling sorry for myself. I think its time that i start doing something about it.
Its my time and im not going to waste it. Starting now.


ok, setious time over. PARTYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
=P
haahaha, ok. SO LOOKING FOWARD TO FRIDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! SHAKESPEARE GUY!!!! <3
my newest herooooo!!!!!!!!


gtg. friend over!
gtg. <3

Byezzz.

Hayley Michelle

Audition

PG=100

Had my audition today, totally un-prepaired because i thoguht it was saturday. my own fault. (slaps self).

I did my Dog sees God monolugue instead of my Checov monolugue. Aparently it was a good choice, but i forgot most of it: haven't touched it since the 1st marking period. I only did it because it was the advice of my clasemates, and i had JUST learned the chekov monolugue. Ms. Aladren hadn't seen it yet and i didnt think it was strong enough to preform. So i did the Dog Sees God monolugue. I dont know how im going to tell my parents though....they're gonna be pissed!

I feel terrible. I know Ms. Aladren said i "got in"...but personally, i think based on my preformance today i wouldnt have beeen except  if Ms.Aladren didn't have those contacts.

I mean, HELL YA! i think im in! Thats great, i jsut think i could have done so much better if i was pre-paired.

Also alittle pissed that i had to wear my teachers dress. MY TEACHERS. AND IT FITTTTTTTT....

Ms. aladren looks fine for where she is in life; but the fact that  a 14 year old girl could fill out her teachers dress and not have it be big on her is just sad.

I neeeeeeeeeddddd to loose weight at this piont: its driving me crazy.

ugggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggggg.

STARVINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG> I have no food in the house. All i have is junk and i am not eating any of ittttt.
grrrrr.

Hayley Michelle

TABLE WORK

Table work today for my freshmen showcase. We are alittle behind due to the day Jess and i were both sick; but we are getting there.
Forgot alot of my lines (screwy brain today, i couldnt even remember how to say "i'm from texas" in spanish today. epic fail, hayley. epic. fail.)
But got through it.

Tried to figure out what
"like two ships sailing past eachother in the night" ment. (Jess's line. still important to me though).
We got the "two ships sailing apst eachother"  part, but stuck on the "night" part.

I think i got it; HISTORY LESSON TIME!!!!!!


Lgiht houses. They were used as becon's of light for ships to see through the blackened nightas the y travled throguh the never ending seas. They were there to lead the way; and help ships from crashing into land or other ships.

The ngiht; (theroy), symbolises the fact that there is no light house; there is no warning of what might come. no light. The night is a trap that they (hannah and Lindsey) cant get out of. If their friendship could last, they have to grow apart; out of the night and into the lgiht.

The night grows dark and darker; almost like their friendship. The dark it is, the hard to see; just like the more problems a friendship has its harder to except and most times notice them.

Hayley Michelle

LINE MOUTHFUNCTIONNNN

PG=100

HOLLLLLLYYYYY SHITTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!!!!!
MARSHALLL'SSSSSS COMMMIIINNGGGGG TOMMMAARRRROWWWWW!


(insert diagram of my head exploding).

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MY parent's are going to flip! They are really pushing me hard on this Mason Gros stuff. Its REALYYYYYYYYY important to me, but they are being so stage parenty over it.

They made me change my monolugues last night, now donig Casey's Chekov monolugue.

And today in rehersal for Freshmen showcase, i forgot ALL MY LINES.

I didn't forget, i just started saying lines from my other monolugues.
IM LOSING IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Grrrr, y is i so complicated? (improper grammer, i knowz. )
ugg, freaking out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Aladren was not here today, wondering why.

Need a spa day; im just so tired lately.
Today i actually over ate in fear of not eating again.

I was exactly 24.56 calories over.
FAT ASSS HAYLEY (slaps faces). (ow).
MY sodium level was 0 yesturday, and now today it was 150. so another slap! (slaps self again. ) (double ow).
ug, gonna go jog it off.


Buy0bye. (oh, and blog about play!)

Hayley Michelle

406!?!?! really!!!?!/!

PG=100

Just woke up, stuffing my face with food.
NEED TO EAT MORE THAN 406 CALORIES!!!!!!

FOOD OVER LOAD! (and im only on my first bowl of cereal!!!!)


Hayley Michelle

COLORIE COUNT.COM

PG=100

Aparently i hav e406 calories aday.

According to Calorie Count.com.


wow.



Hayley Michelle

eating disorder?UGG MENU!!!

Pg=100

Finally got my dropbox to work (it got deleted, but i created a new account and then "magically" everything re-apeared).

So i open the nutrition folder and i have been phsco-obbessive over it.

I also looked at the eating dissoder power-point.

It was really...wierd.

I know people that have eating disorders, i dont have one...but i have a lot of the same problems and issues/(sympotms?) of what was listed for "eating disorders".

Now im just really confussed.

Personally, i dont see anything wrong with what i do. But now im alittle worried about it.

Working on the menu; and feeling really crapyyyyyy.

When is it due anyways?
And trying to figure out when to eat these things.


I know it sounds really stupid, but i never eat breakfeast or lunch; its too fattening and i dont have time. I mean, i probably due; but its jsut not really neccisary to me.
I come home around like 5ish and i snack and eat dinner; then SOMETIMES when im at the mall i eat and later regret it.

UGGGGG MENU!!!!!!!!!!!!

Also found out that my goal weight is not "healthy" so i am settling for 110 lbs goal wieght.

I reallllyyy want to be less then 100, but its "not healthyy".
ggrrr.

Feeeling really fat; jsut had home-made chinese food(thnx dad), <3. It was cool; i dont know how to use chopsticks without hurting myself.

Honey-seaseme chicken with brown rice and pecans. (yummmm).

sooooo goood, but feeling chubby.
Tireedddddd.

Needed a "contrasting monolugue" for Mason Gros audition, so i am now doing Casey's monolugue  (Checkov's The seagull). (Nina).

Best i could do on a short notice ( NO ROMEO AND JULIET).

Going to go practice adn do my eliptcal machine.
FATTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT DAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.

Byeee <3

Hayley Michelle

DROP BOX= Canadain thing= Something i HATEEEEEEEE

PG=100

AGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG
According to DropBox, i dont exist. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR>

It aparently doesn't remember my account, or anything to do with it, and its frustrating: I NEED THAT NUTRITION STUFFF! AGRGEQWR$@#*($*(UF_#W*&#_Q*T${_*T.

Worknig on menu thingy, fun.

Went to Gabe's choir concert, (awsome), and i woke up late for my lessons, and took the wrong guitar and all the wrong books.

Didn't eat today, no time. Still have to work on Mason Gros Monolugues, andblog, and menu, and other stuff .

Grr, parents are KILLING MEEEEEEE>

No time for anything, gtg.
back to monolugues.
bye

Hayley Michelle

According to my Thermometor, i should be dead. XP

PG=100

My tempature is 83.6

Ya.

IM DEAD!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!

hahaha, not feeling well. I cant breathe my nose, im reathing through my feet. My eyes hurt alot, and my STOMACH IS KILLING MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE.

I tried eating, but i threw up. So not eating today.

SEE?! I TOLD YOU I GET SICK VERY EASILY!

God hates me. I feel like i should blame Jessica, but i blame my pharmisist. (he's canadian. no joke). I ran out of airborne, and didn't take it sop im sick.
grrr.

Missing school. (shockingly). still cant find any leporchans or 4 leaf clovers for tomarrow.

CRAPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPp



WANTED: LEPERCHAN

REQUIREMENTS: Must be a leperchan (no hauxes!)
                                  Must be a midget lerperchan (really cute too! that fits in my pocket).
                                  Must be a MAGICAL leperchan
                                  Must be a Skilled magician in scaring away bad-luck.

WILL BE PAID MUCHO DOLLARES!
(Also, Leperchans must be able to speak ENGLISH!. NO COMPRENDO SPANISH!)

If you are a leperchan and you are interested, please call the toll number below:
(732) - 491- 6028


Hayley Michelle

BluefBerry Hill

Alittle to upset to talk about my freshmen showcase, or accoriding to my family "A non-musical talent show".

Still really upset.

Thinking about my play; its going good. table work is always fun, but now pissed if Jess gave me pink eye.

I get sick TOO EASILY.

still pissed.
crying alittle, my nose is runny but im not gonig out there to get tissues.

Not
talking
to
"that"
man.

no.


Blue-berry hill. I dont even know whaty the hell im doing.

Im trying to think about something...but i dont know what the hell im doing!
AGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!


still angry.

I cant think when im angry. god, they get me so worked up.
If i can chanle this anger into my blueberry hill blog, it would be awsome.

but i cant.

UGGG, THEY'RE PISSING ME OFFFFFFFFFFFF!


Gtg, we're fighting again.

ug, bye.

>=(

Hayley MIchelle

Parents suck....or just dads.

PG=100

I hate my dad.
Im never talking to him about anything ever again.
EVERYTHING always turns into a god-damn fight!

Well, im sorry that i'm not as awsome as you wanted me to be; im not gonig to be a fucking trophy daughter. I wasn't famous when i was 7, or travling around the world when i was 13. ok?
IM
NOT
YOU.

Why do parents always think that they're a mini-version of them? Im nothing like my parents.

Nothing at all. They were super-stars and had fucknig realy jobs when they were 5! My dad was an international chef at the age of 7- cooking at the carngie deli and my mom was running an accounting thingy that no one cares about...
And then theres me.

Trying be a carbon-copy of my "perfect" hard-working parents, instead of being a kid like i should have.

I never learned how to ride a bike.
They sent me away to "princess camp" and "horse riding acadamy's".

They were to damn busy.
And then they come home, and tell me all my flaws in everything i do, and i always try to correct it and its never good enoguh because they always copmair me to them and it SUCKS ASS.


My dad just doesnt get it. He says the most idiotic things about theater and opereas, and makes rude jokes about things i take seriously; he sounds like an idiot.

and he gets all defensive when i correct him.

I jsut got home from the mall after 2 hours of reading monolugue books and arguing with my dad about why im not doing romeo and juliet; and then he tells me im not getting in becasue i suck, and im un-determined and that my "dog sees God" monolugue is bullshit and.....

We got kicked out of barns-and-nobels.


Then we foghut all the way home in the car, and then in the drive-way, and now im lcked in my room typing this.

Im never talking to my dad about anything srious; because he'll just say that i suck and im not determined.

He can kiss my ass; because im more determined then he will ever be, and even thoguh i wasnt being a super-chef at the age of 6 or something, i am still a wonderful person.

Im not him: im hayley Michelle.


Hayley Michelle

IM NOT DOING ROMEO AND JULIET...and imitations of life. and another on-line meltdown.

PG=100

My dad is driving me CRAZYYYYY. my dad wants me to audition with 'Romeo and Juliet".

I freaked.
This is the SEVENTH TIME hes told me to do so.

And this is also the SEVENTH TIME i told him NO. EVERYONE does that.
And he's jsut agrivating me.
ALOT.

He wants me to do a monolugue from "Romeo and Juliet" (no), "Majority of one" (AGE APPROPRIATE DAD!!!!) and "Imitation of Life"  (A movie, from what i know. PLAYS ONLY PLEASE).

UGGG. He thinks he nkwos everything, but he doesnt.

I mean, im a teenager; im supposed to think i know everything...whicvh is true...but i dont.

But i sure as HELL, know WAYYYY more aout theater then him!

He still calls my freshmen showcase a "Talent Show".

I love my parents, they're totally supportive...but sometimes i wonder if the listen when i talk. is it just gonig one ear throguh the other.

Thats my problem; they dont understand it. If it doesnt have music in it they dont get it.

They dont get me.
as a person.

or maybe an artist.

They act all interested infront of everyone, but they dont really care.

I try to show them my work all the time, but theyre to busy to look up and see. or hear.

Theyre always working and stuff.

Most of the time im home with my cat; writing stuff that nobody reads.

Its really aggrivating; i mean, my cat listens. Maybe because i force him too, but still. he's there.


Whatever...iuts not like anyones there...right?

I dont even know why i write all of this. I mean, people read it and its private....but i just feel drawn to post.


Maybe because i want the attention: but i dont.
THats my problem; im a gollum. split personality.

I was thinknig about what Ms.Aladren said "You are who you are when no one is looking".

God, im such a terrible person.
In the moment, i dont think about the attention; but secretyl, sub-concouisly, i do.

I dont do it for the attention; i do it to be heard.

Alot of people complain that im loud and everything. i donbt even know how that started..but all i know is that i do it to be noticed. heard. Im not a brick in the wall; im more like the barbed wire on top. people dont like that i guess. Like barbed wire; i push away people that come near me (or scratch and mame them..you know, same diffrence). I repell people with my "aquired taste-ness".

Well, frankly FUCK YOU! I dont give a shit.
Who i really am? Is a sad blob who always feels sorry for-herself. An attention hogging, grasping, son-of-a bitch, terrible person.

Im not a nice person when im alone.
I dont talk much; and frankly all i do is cry. think about the day i had; and cry.

Even if it was good.
Lately its becoming a ritual; i dont know. Alot of my old habbits are starting to become a ritualistic part of my day.

I've ben having meltdowns at least once a week; or more. Ive been crying myself to sleep every day.

I dont know whats going on. Its jsut really hard. I want to say its "pressure" but its not. I deal with it all the time; i think its jsut myself.

a young-life crisis?

All i know is that i'm a pysco, you guys want me to shut up about my god damn feelings, and my dad wants me to audition with Romeo and Juleit..

no.


Hayley Michelle

MY TV IS FROZEN

Pg=100

MELT
DOWN.



NO
GLEE.


DIEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE


My TV froze, just as i am about to DVR Glee. ....grr.............

if i cant see Johnathan Groff tonight, Puppies. will die....somewhere. in the world.



Ya, tahts how angry i am,
TV! WORK FOR THE PUPPIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!



cried in class today, aparently i sit wierd.

PRINCESS.

I actually went to princess school in 3rd grade. 2 week corse in the summer. They taught me proper eddicate.

I always like looking pretty, not like a princess....i mean, unless i' wearing a crwon, but piont is: i jsut feel wrong.

Lately, ive been really frustrated. everything i've been doing is wrong lately: i cant even sit properly!

AGGGGGGGGG!
OR RECORD GLEE!


Tv fixed.
<3 <3 <3

I just feel diffrent sometimes; and thats from a theater kid's piont of view! ag-ag-ag. ummm...pikels? running out of things to say.
ANGSTTTTTTTTTT.

Emily is now in my lunch room> she's like, my only friend in theater. Wich is kinda-cool.
I feel badf for the people in our classes next year, EMILY+ME= HERMINOE KCANT DRAW/TIME WARP CRAZYNESS. (AKA LOUD VOLUME).

mwhahaha, thinging about adopting a duck named Aflac.

Actaully...stealing it.
My friend jsut got the CUTEST LITTLE DUCKLING EVER! Its name is Aflac, and i love it. TO >DEATH>

Its so tiny, and fluffy! 2 cute!
<3

anywho, going to google "how to sit properly".
ta-ta for now (iunsert princess wave).

Hayley Michelle

ALLY IS A KLEPTO!!!!! HAPPY BELATED MOTHERS DAY! MY DINOSAUR HAS LAZERBEEM EYEBALL!!

PG=100

Weird day, Adjenea isn’t here....

Neither Ms. Aladren. I mean, she left for something and we got to do a weird excursize with the seniors. (Still fun though XP).(Directed by Casey: acted by Alley and me).

I was a happy-go-lucky person enjoying the hot day outside from helping animals while Ally was a person that was melting like ice cream. SHE STOLE MY WATERBOTTLE!!!!

KLEPTOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

hahahaa, kkz. so getting back on track.
had an AWSOME mother’s day. (Happy belated Mothers day, everyone btw).

OMG< the FUNNIEST thing happened on Mothers day!


So my little cousins came over (the cute ones that i don’t hate...yet. Micheal,7, and Eric, 5,).

They always come over and destroy my room so i took them outside to play on the canons with me.
We played "fantasy epic battle galactica dino land extreme". (L.A.R.P.) (live action role play).

So before we went in to have brunch, we decided that our dinosaur’s were going to have an EPIC BATTLE TO THE DEATH.

So, we were sitting down (we had our own table. To the adults: the kids table./ To us: the round table of destruction and unicorns. ) (i added the last part. <3).

So Micheal is eating his bagel, all cute like...and then he says, all fancy....
"So...what did you make your dinosaur out of"...

i almost ROFLED out of my seat!(THE FALLOWING IS A TRUE STORY. WORD. BY. WORD). (WARNING: THE FALLOWING CONVERRSATION MAY BE DISTURBINGLY FUNNY FOR SOME VIEWERS> PARENTAL DESGRESSION DENIED).

Then i said
"My dinosaur has bones of plutonium and can shoot lazerbeems from his eyes".
then he goes
"Oh, thats nice. mine can do that too. He has 2 lazerbeem eyes on each of his four heads".
Then i go
'aww, that’s so cute. Mine has three hands full of wolverine claws...tipped with a spiders deadly poison".
Then he goes
"Really, now? ...well mine shoots cobra venom from his tail."
then i go
"Well mine has an invisible force feild around it, and took karate lessons for the past..oh, billion years and is immune to cobra poison!" then there was a silent pause.
"oh" says he.
then i go
"I'
m sorry, would you like a band-aid for that burn cuz you just got served!"
then he goes
"ha ha ha, laugh it up, baby, but my dinosaur is a Jedi and has teeth of steel that bites through invisible force fields."

This went on for about and hour.....


And we had lots of fun. I got to be harry pooter, Dark lord Hayleycus, Duke of Remington-ton. and i also got to be a flesh eating, lazerbeem shooting, tornado speed, immune to cobra venom dinosaur!!!!


BEST
MOTHERS
DAY
EVERRRRR.

<3


Hayley Michelle

BLAME CANADA

PG=100

watched South Park the movie again last night, (BLAME CANADA).

Went to "Women on Target" today. I fundraiser for femisist to dominate the shooting world.

Had fun, kicked some booty.

I drove home singing "Asses on Fire". (that TOTALLY inapropriate song from South Park), and am now "cleaning" my room for mothers day. and by cleaning, i mean blogging.

so...wats up, everyone?

excited for Mother's day, wrote my mom a song, and its awsome.

now all i have to do is get everyone else a present.
XP


gtg. THEY CAUGHT ON TO ME!!!

CANADA< THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT!!!!

(Blame canada).


Hayley Michelle

umm...akwardddddddd

PG=100

Ok, i was just told that i have to write about my freshmen showcase...our freshmen showcase? the freshmen showcase? Confussed? yes. Awsome? yes. Monkey? posibley.

I DONT KNOW WHAT TO SAYYYY AGKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKk

ok, found words.

HELP.

how do i wrote about the freshmen showcase?
the world may never know....its easlier to find out how many licks there are til you get to the center of a totsie pop.

*cricket*cricket*
*cricket*cricket*

BIRD! AGKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK.

There was a bird that jsut flew and hit my window.
CREEEPYYYYYYYYY.

Ok, so im in the freshmen showcase.

that is all i got.

?


Hayley Michelle

ME!...and other un-important things....

PG=100

SO today i had a blast! Gave fattinging "corn" to everyone. (aka cupcakes). proved my theroy of awsomeness (Awsome= Jew²). hahaha, studied great scientist today in history...ALL OF THEM WERE JEWS! GO US!

Watched South Park the movie: aka, my co-partner in hating CANADA.

i Rolfed the ENTIRE TIME! It was SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO incredibly funny!!!!! hahaha.

"BLAME CANADA! BLAME CANADA!"

oh, it was so funny. it hurts! .....

aperently now i have to start blogging about Freshmen showcase...ok? i dont exactly know what to write...but imma go give it a shot now. so....bye.

Hayley Michelle

THEY'RE BOTH GAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY =(

PG=100

I am uber-glee fan. the biggest gleek of them all.
AND NEXT EPISODE WILL BE AWSOME BECAUSE THEYRE BRINGING BACK JOHNATHAN GREOFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1


Ok, i am his BIGEST fan in everything he does. On the awsome scale he is at a high piont of a billion! The only one thats awsomemer is Freddie Murcury. AND THEYRE BOTH  GAYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!

(one is dead, and teh other is Johnathan greoff).

They are both super mega awsomely talented and i loveeee them.

I hate fan -girl crushes, they piss me off. I dont have a fan girl crush, but i highly, HIGHLY respect them both....ok, maybe jsut a little  fan girl crush on Freddie...but nothing too serious.

XP

Working on my plays and did some table work today. Have to learn how to "tur teh camera" off. ugg, gonna ber harddddddddddddddddddd.

hahaha,
kkz. thats all i have right now. ttyl. XP
he he.

Hayley Michelle

BRAIN FUDGE UP TEH CORNIA

PG=100

MENTAL
BRAIN
FUDGE
UP
THE
CORNIA.

!!!!


I know that made no sense, but thats exactly what happened today....

I think i understand what i'm doing wrong with my writing. We read an AMAZINGGGG essay, andnow i am going to stalk it and be a creeper. It was that amazing.

Also talked about, Breaking...still confussed. They said that i was "begining to break". and i dont know if its good or bad. and im worried, and not concered at teh same time.

UGG! BRAIN FUDGE UP THE CORNIA AGAIN!

Hahahahaha.

Working on my plays again. I am doing 3 plays:

- Cages for Animals, Freedom for sale (My "comedy" about teen pyscos. fire. and uh...Jerry Garcia).

- Queen of the Dammed (My play on feminism and how unfair society is. also, partly communism).

- Masqurade (just starting that one now. I was thinknig about what we were talking today about "masks". I fond it very interesting. I want to write about how we build walls starting from a young ae,a nd how innocence is demolished as time goes by. Hwo we loose a part of our selfs,a nd mostly forget our true selfs, to become this person of lies and masks. like a masqurade. "Masqurade. paper faces time to play. masqurade. hide your face so the world will never find you/" -Phantom of the Opera).

excited!

Mwhahaha, and now...with my secret formula of sucess......I WILL TRYUMPH!!!!!!!!!!!

BRAIN FUDGE UP THE CORNIA! (my new catchfraze!)

(pig snort) Thats all folks!

Hayley MIchelle

Misner

PG=100

let muh gaurd down today during Misner. It felt like shit. I was mad at myself for letting it happen, but i got somewhat praise for it? confussed. Gabe and i were doing a misner excersize, and he said i looked like the worst ballerinia ever.

Thats were it started for me.

When i was little, iwas the prima ballerina of my ballet class. The best 3 year old ever. Iw anted to be a ballerinia, but then i was bumbed up to an expert class. I was with older girls, and i was so proud that i could be able to dance with them... turns out i wasnt as good as i thoguht i was.They made fun of me alot, because my butt sticks out during plea's. it was also because i just sucked at ballet. they used to make fun of me alot. he WORST dancer ever. I mean, i joke about it and stuff...but not about ballet. i always took that very seriously.

Then he said i jiggled.

And then i wanted to take the stick and shove it up his $#*@J$@&R_@&$U_@&RJ#*@&$&F&#@*&^@_!+$UR_@.

I like gabe, he is such an awsome senior, but you mention my wieght or my fatness and i will kill you. no joke.

i let it hurt. I used have my gaurd down alot. I was so natural with everyone else, but they said i complain to much., I only complain because no one hears me. They listen; but they cant hear. I get very sensitive over certaint subjects.

I like misner; its all about the truth. But i seriously was a hair away from loosing it on Gabe.

Will work on it, and as for my mask? its staying up until i get over myself. Im my biggest obsticle.

Hayley Michelle